(I'm really wordy today.) :D
What is National Novel Writing Month? It's November. November is a month where writers of all kinds put their pens to paper and fingers to keyboard and write out 50,000 words in one month. They say 50,000 words makes a novel. That's a lot of writing in one month! (I did the math and if you wanted to write the same amount of words each day, you'd have to write about 1,666 words a day. I say round it up to 2,000 so you can have some wiggle room if you go with that method.)
So. Me and writing. We're friends, I guess you could say. We've spent a lot of time together, though we don't get along all the time. Many times I've sat down with a brilliant story idea and started typing. I'd type and type and type and I'd be happy with it for a couple of days. . .then I'd leave and come back and wonder what on earth possessed me to write such garbage and I'd delete the evidence of no talent immediately.
I'm scared to participate in NaNoWriMo. I want to, I really do, but I'm afraid I won't finish. Now, NaNoWriMo gives out no prizes and there's no shame in losing. Technically, you can't "lose". You're only a "Winner" if you reach the word count. Just because you didn't reach the crazy goal of 50,000 words in only 30 days doesn't mean you're an utter failure; it means you weren't able to type that much in a month. (Kaleigh, come back and read this on December 1st when you're hurting, okay?) :P
Despite my lack of confidence I have about this whole thing, I feel determined to do it. I started writing when I was about 9 years old. . .maybe 10 (I like to say 9 because it makes it seem more like a "this is my destiny!" kind of thing). XP I wrote silly little stories with no real problems. When I was 11 I wrote a little story about a hen named Henrietta that could talk. Somehow I managed to turn a silly little story into a rather serious story about a girl who went to live with her aunt and uncle and became paralyzed after a tragic accident (It was most likely a car accident, though I don't remember). I don't have that story anymore because the laptop crashed a long time ago, but I wish I had it. It was that simple story that got me into writing. Because of that story, I declared "I want to be an author" when I was 11 and I've been writing ever since.
I've suffered some kind of seemingly eternal writer's block for about three years now. Nothing I write is good. It's all trash. I haven't finished a single story. I mention how I love to write and people ask me if they can read something. Well. . .I don't have anything. I have no evidence. Now, I'm sure there's something worth reading, but I just don't see it. I feel like I have to at least like it a little bit before I even consider letting someone read it. Therefore, nobody reads anything I write. Ever.
So, why do I have determination? I want to be an author. My dream is to write a book so good that it becomes a New York Times Bestseller and makes people cry. Yeah. . .that's my dream in writing right there. It's gotta make people cry. XP Now, the thing is. . .I actually have an idea. This isn't just some idea I thought of over the past two weeks that I'm going to start writing it in November. Nope. I came up with this in January 2013, a month before my sixteenth birthday. I've been sitting on this idea for nearly two years. I've tried writing it a few times, but it never worked out. Now I'm into serious story planning. I'm writing out character info, setting info, plots, everything.
The month before my sixteenth birthday was filled with thoughts of "I don't want to grow up!!" That's what the story is about. It's about not wanting to grow up. This story means so much to me and I'm not giving away the plot just yet. You're just going to have to hope it gets published some day, sorry. :P Having the desire of not wanting to grow up has literally been the story of my life. Now I've come up with a real story about it and I'd like to publish it. When I remembered NaNoWriMo I was wondering what in the world could I possibly write 50,000 words about!? I thought of my story and decided I'll take my chances with it. If I don't finish it, oh well. At least I'll have gotten started on it, right?
So yeah, my writing is much like my crocheting. . .it definitely comes in spurts and I can drop interest just like that. BUT. . .I've held a long term interest in it for about 8 years now. I'm beginning to think that maybe writing is what I'm called to do. Maybe it's my purpose. . . I'm supposed to be thinking about what I'll study in college and really, I've had no idea up to this point. Now I'm thinking that I'll go into some kind of writing something. . .maybe journaling. (If I can be 100% truthful about this, I don't know what good college will do when it comes to writing a book. I think I know English grammar well enough to write one!) :P
Wish me luck as I prepare, and let me know if you're doing this, too! :)
Until next time, plan your book. ♥
☼ Kaleigh Danielle ☼
PS: Pardon my wordiness today. I'm pumped and it's a topic that really, really means a lot to me. :D
PPS: This post is about 1,000 words. If I can type this much twice every day for thirty days, I CAN DO IT.